Regivision

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What happens if you decide to deepen a relationship and really get to know the person closest to you. In this case, my own mother.

How close can you get? I went away with my mother, booked a weekend when we would talk about all the things we had not approached before. Our experiences of destructive adolescence, the sorrows and wounds we have never really dealt with. The place was beautiful and quiet. There was time. It was just us. But nothing was said. Instead, it became a business trip as we distanced ourselves from each other and fled into art.

When I got home from the trip, I thought about why it was so hard to go into the dark and how different we remember things. My mother wanted her daughters not to suffer from the same disease as her. But still I repeated the same pattern and our experiences are frighteningly similar.

I did not want to confront her. Do not blame. There are no traumas or conflicts between us. But a silence, that which has not been worked out. It is easy to hide behind a facade, an image on the outside of being "successful" but completely shattered inside. The talented girl who does everything to maintain the image, who carries a longing for death and a strong self-loathing. Sooner or later, things come to the surface. I decided to make a film, to try to get closer to her and the themes I want to explore with the help of the camera. I knew there was a lot of stuff, stories in her life that could serve as the basis for a movie. Karin uses me and my sisters as symbols or tools in her art.

Now I turn the camera towards her. In an attempt to give a language to experiences and memories that we have not approached before. I have a personal approach in my filming, whether it is about my own family or, as in my previous film Homeland, about a woman from Damascus who fled the war in Syria. I believe that the deeper you dare to go and the more personal and honest, the greater the chance that you will be able to reach others. Because we are basically so similar and carry the same desire, to be loved for who we are.